Pen and Paper

I've been doing a lot of writing the good old fashioned way, with pen and paper. There are a few drawbacks to that...it's not as fast as typing and I have been neglecting the old blog here! That's what happens when you have another person around who wants to play games on the computer so you can't get on to do your thing. Oh well, there is nothing wrong with a notebook and pen. It really got me thinking about how technology is not necessarily change for the better. I know many would argue the point, but I am not here to argue, just point out a few things.

I really am feeling the urge, or need to write more and obviously the computer is limiting. I can only do it in this one room. Sure, there are laptops, but they are expensive and I can't really justify the purchase of one, just because I want to write in other places than this room. I can take a notebook or journal with me anywhere, and I don't need electricity or batteries or wifi to run them! When spring finally comes, I want to be able to take my writing outside and write about nature and things. If I was writing that outside on a computer somehow I think it takes away from it. Of course, you know I want a damn laptop so maybe I am just trying to convince myself how great the old school way is! :)

My sister-in-law was telling me the other day that she read the infamous "they" want to do away with cursive writing. What the ........??????????????? Blasphemy, I say! Obviously people are going to still have to sign their names at some point in their lives! It's not just that, but it's an art, and most likely a lost art at that. Do you remember when we had to learn it in school? We thought we were all that because we could print, but when you could write in cursive, you'd hit the big leagues baby!!!! Remember the lined paper with the dotted line in the middle so you could make your letters correctly? I know I was so excited to learn cursive I could hardly wait until we did the next letter, and then when we finally got to Z I was a little disappointed that there were no more letters! I didn't like it that I couldn't make my letters as perfect as the guide we had over the chalkboard, but I guess I did pretty decent. I know when I was older, many of us ditched the "proper" way to write and invented our own ways of making letters in cursive. Some looked better than the originals, maybe some not, but it was definitely our own form of personal expression. I honestly do not think you can get that from playing with fonts on the computer. It's just not your original style, it's only a copy of someone else's. If anyone that actually reads my blog would like to, please comment on this! I would love to hear your thoughts on writing.

I suppose I should throw in some updates here on the DBT and CBT skills front. In some ways it's getting easier, and I think a lot of that is due to the Risperidone I am on. I hate that stuff in some ways because it's caused weight gain, and it has a horrible zombie-like effect in the mornings. I am so not a morning person to begin with, but this stuff just intensifies that to the n'th degree! However, it does help whatever my brain chemistry was missing. It slows my thought processes down enough to where I can control them better and pay attention to certain things instead of being all over the place and unable to focus or let things sink in. As a result, I am finding it easier to work with my skills and put them to use instead of just wanting to throw it all out the window. It also is allowing me for the most part to sleep through the night instead of the constant waking and going back to sleep. It's still hard to be proud of myself though, because even if I can use the skills better, it's like I am annoyed that I have to use them at all! Some people are just never satisfied, right? :)